2025-08-04_just the beginning

this is just the beginning. this is just your beginning. these words ring and echo in my head. they mean more than i can grasp at this point. i’m not quite sure if i should be happy or humbled or weary or scared of them. there is something calming about them and their meaning. but there is also the potential for that calm to become disarming, which i should be weary of. disarmed is not what i need to be right now. but this is just your beginning. there’s still a lot to go. you’ve been acting and living like it all needs to be done now or very soon. but this is just your beginning. you’ve experienced a lot these past almost three years now yes, but they won’t be your last. there’s still many more to go. people will come and go. interests will come and go. causes will come and go, actions will succeed and fail, things will fall apart and form anew. this is just the beginning, for you.

against many odds, you’re pretty solid in parts of yourself currently. what the meaning of it all is doesn’t trouble or stop you from acting for what you believe in. your troubles/challenges are more immanent: respecting your limits, learning strategy and communication, accumulating substantive knowledge and experience and translating them to action and community effectively and caringly. this is just your beginning. give yourself time, because the time you give yourself now is crucial. it will be worth it later, your intuition is sure of it.

the work is just starting, remember that. the worst and best, the hardest and most pleasant is yet to come. the work is just starting. this is just the beginning. for you.